clear sight

"Ah! the true rule is--a true wife in her husband's house is his servant; it is in his heart that she is queen.  Whatever of the best he can conceive, it is her part to be; whatever of the highest he can hope, it is hers to promise; all that is dark in him she must purge into purity; all that is failing in him she must strengthen into truth; from her, through all the world's clamor, he must win his praise; in her, through all the world's warfare, he must find his peace."
--John Ruskin

I read this quote in the book, St. Elmo, and was struck with such a sense of truth and unadulterated sincerity that I could not get it out of my mind.  Funny how, often times, the thing that we long for and desire the most, is not clear to us until we come across it.  In my experience, throughout my long [:)] life, God has never failed to give me the desires of my heart.  But in most instances I had no idea what the desires of my heart were until He actually gave them to me.  I am indeed humbled by this simple but true fact.  The crushing reality that I am, in my most natural and human state, blind and unaware of even my own heart's desires is not something on which I long to dwell.  Is it, however, because of my entirely helpless state that I should rejoice and consider myself blessed?  If I had a complete knowledge of my own heart and its desires, nothing would be in the way of my getting them, which in the end would result in a cold and prideful human being, dependent on no one and never knowing the rich pleasure of intimacy with another soul.  Having stated the above, I'm overwhelmingly grateful for the "blessing" of NOT knowing everything.  Of being forced to depend on a Higher source.  I also cannot go without saying that I am extremely thankful for the few moments when my eyes are cleared and I can get a glimpse of what is true.